Friday, June 20, 2008'♥
When you face the loss of someone, it reminds you about your own mortality. That you never know what is lurking round the corner for you. I think the shock of losing someone and at the same time realising that life isn’t forever is immense.I am going to live each day as if it was my last, making sure that I live my dreams, live to the full and ensuring that I leave this world a better place for having lived...
I like this quotes real much...It gives you inspirations and strengthen your will to live. Nothing is immortal and all things shall perish....
How I wish to tell my children about living our life and enjoying it. They are young and hard to understand about life. This world is too old to hold on any longer..I've read about it, I shan't say it here, very scary..
Okay, weekend is here again. School re-open soon! That is what I was waiting for.... with the children spending their whole time at home will make their mind stagnant (duit aku pun byk dah habis beb!!) I got to bring them shopping for stationery...ouhhh..too many things happened, probably will go and get them stationeries a week after school reopen.....
20/6/08
The day when everything started to downturn in my life. I dun expect things to get out of hands, and I am yet to find out the reason why shits had been happening at the time I need them most....I always wanted the best out of them, as a mother, they dun seems to understand me. No Mother would want to destroy their kids live but instead, they hate us like we're some kind of gryphon controlling their lives.I just want them to understand what life has in store for them. Influence by friends might be the main reason but I truly believe one has to control their ownself not to get influence easily. She dun understand life just yet, she follows strictly to her wrong conscience. That is to say, my words have been put on deaf ears and to her, it seems a bunch of useless words.
I've been having severe migraine and no appetite to eat. Hubby has not been eating for the past 3 days. I know that he feels the greatest sorrow and he try not to show, but I know him well, he is greatly affected by his children's attitude towards him....it seems that all his love and affections, has gone down the drain. He did not speak much ever since the day, likewise me.... The other siblings noticed her absence from the family, but I managed to talk to them and hope they will understand. Where is her sense of responsibility 2wards her other siblings? She should set good example to them instead, she left them puzzled and confused with things that happened lately. I had discussed with hubby last night to resign from my current job and spend time at home with the children. That means, the family has got less income in the future. If that what she wants and then I can focus on her. She will not blame me next time for lack of attention 2wards her. It's hard for me to break the news to my boss...but somehow I will have to do so.
Ya Allah please bless me and show me the right path. Show me the light and with your guide, I wish I would find the answer....Insya Allah, Amin....
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